Whenever I think about it, I really don't have an idea what's it gonna be like.
It give me this cold hard look at me whenever it cross my mind.
But honestly, we all don't know what's our future will be like.
Back then when I was around 11-12 years old, me and my mate were wondering how we turn out when we finish high school. We weren't so sure what our path will be like, but one thing for certain, that we will be there and think again how we would be when we reach 20's and that's what we exactly thought again when we met each other at 17.
Now I'm 23, things are not that great but not so bad either. Remember that I said in previous post that I can finally let go of my feeling towards her? yeah that was hard. It's even harder when all the sudden you dream of her finally accepting you. The dream felt so real, I shed tears during my sleep.
Man.. what.. a.. life!...
So I'm writing this is when the future me is reading and finally found someone (someone that able to reciprocrate that feeling), it's that you remember what kind of f-up emotional turmoil you've been through.
I guess some people exist for a momentarily period of time, is to shape you to becoming a better person, phycially and mentally. Don't be sad because of a single person, banyak lagi ikan di lautan.
Am I better person now? maybe... yeah kinda... I take religous matter bit more seriously, lost a lot of weight (90Kg to 69Kg), know myself a little bit more and kinder.... I think? I don't know...
Ohh by the way, I'm 2 weeks from getting back home.. hopes everythings is fine... If I'm not, well to whomever read this, you have finally dug out the real Syauqi. The Syauqi where he hid he's true self. The Syauqi that don't really have anyone to turn to, except him self and God.
You probably he's parent, wife or someone random that happen to stumble upon this blog. I bid you welcome.
I don't really have anymore idea what to write, so.. yeah "Keep Moving Forward".
