Hey there Syauqi, how's life and study till now?..... Must be hard isn't it
Syauqi remember back then during Primary School? You were the kid that struggle a lot with your study and stuff, you'd be daydreaming all the time, you failed almost all subject, regardless if they were academics or religious studies, you would always fools around even when the teacher are mad at you. You barely could care less about the future. you always at the bottom of the rank.
At one point, dad decided to pull you out from school cause one were too simple-minded. But thank god that didn't happen. Not near the end of primary school that you have found something that you good at, that is Mathematics. From there to high-school you have been improving you math till the point where modern math (a subject) would be really easy, except for Additional Math, that shit is hard but still manage to get a B.
Anyway, you still struggled with ya high-school. You didn't view any subject in high-school any bit interesting (except math). Even after 2 years left of high-school you really didn't think much, all you cared that you past them subject for your SPM. One of the reason you didn't put much effort it is because, people look down on you, since primary school, people wont expect much from you, people would tell you "why even bother to answer the test if you know you gonna failed in it" and that's was your teacher.
Your parent lost confidence in you ever having bright future, people joke on how you are not capable of understanding anything. Other things that contribute to your lack of motivation to study is that, none of the subject you learned during schools that draw your interest. Everything was boring. Only then you found that things that you really passionate about. That is Math to Physics to electronic, all this three involve calculation, your mind just evolve around this. To add to this factor you also really love electronics gadget and computer, your passion has spark the love for electronics.
Then SPM came, SPM was your biggest obstacle in pursuing your love for electronic. That only subject you targeted was Match (modern and additional), Physics and English. Five month pass, result come out, surprise surprise....... your result were pretty bad (not much of surprise, given that I hate studying XD), you went home and showed to your parent, The first person to see it was yer mom, she was quite and didn't say nothing. Then dad, dad keep regretting for tutoring you enough.
You applied for college, you know you wont be able to get into University, so you opt for Polytechnic. You got into some decent Poly and the course of your dream that is Diploma in Electronic Engineering. You didn't took the offer due to how far is it from home. You were in limbo, you didn't know where to pursue you dream given how bad is your result are.
Not until one day Dad found out a institute that is more hands-on than theoretical, that is German-Malaysian institute (GMi). You had no choice, so you went there. You undergone 3 years of studies in Diploma in Industrial Electronic (Electronic and I.T).
The first semester was really a big mess for you, you had too much doubt whether you can make it or not, you draw back on the past that you kept failing. That things that people said about you maybe they are right, you are SLOW, SIMPLE-MINDED, STUPID, NO BRIGHT FUTURE. You began to break apart, at one point you were at your knees praying to God that you wont mess up the last chances. It wasn't easy, you know that life is not that simple to turn 180.
With your might and God help you plow you way till the end of First Semester. You were slow in understanding the subject you learn, but you found the best way to learn is to WRITE IT DOWN. You studied the subject before you attend the class, you didn't miss a pray every-single day. You spending the time in the library study. You didn't socialize, you were to scared to fail.
Final Semester exam has come, you stayed strong, you have been preparing for this for 5 month. Exam week pass, you anxiously waiting for the day of result, and walla............. you got 3.75/4.00 GPA for first semester. You were so happy back then that you can believe it, you really did make it mate. Then you start realizing that there still hope for you to become somebody in this life.
Fast forward to you final semester (Semester six), you continued that trend of your GPA till you got CGPA of 3.63 in Semester 5, but during this semester in the most crucial semester if all. It is because you have a FINAL YEAR PROJECT. But with constant hard work, you manage to get the best project of the year in your department. you graduate with GPA 3.93 in Semester 6 and CGPA of 3.69
From there, all sort of opportunity doors open before you. You got accepted one of the world top 50 EEE institute, that is The University of Manchester. You cried, tears start flowing, but that's not the tears of sadness but tear of joy.
Let reflect back, from a dumb kid to achieving something big in life, life is hard, it's always gonna be hard, there no telling how you will doing there in Manchester. But Syauqi................ I'm only can say this "KEEP MOVING FORWARD", yes I have achieve a good grade but I am STILL NOT SATISFY with it, I want to move forward, pursue my passion toward it's absoluteness. I never feel more alive than before, years of doubt has finally come to a temporary end but there's is more to come. Oh Syauqi.... please don't give up now. We are in the beginning of an ending part 1
never forget to pray and Du'a, surely a bright future is waiting.
KEEP MOVING FORWARD!!!
