The subtle wind, passing an emty can

I think I already have trust issue, I've been open to people too easily, at the end they all just walk away from you.

It's not like it's their fault, I guess complaining to people about my life problem isn't such a pleasant topic. I don't tell my parent how I am, I only tell my closed friends, but I come to relized that... I open to up everyone nowadays..

Desperately looking for attention, so now.... I choose not to tell anyone anything, no more getting to closed to anyone. I just end-up hurting them in the process.

So I use this blog to express all my bottle up feelings.

Lately, I've been feeling very lonely, Keep thinking about "Her", but deep down I know I don't really like her or anything. Is that feeeling of desperate that kept me in this state of mind.

I think Syauqi, you better of be alone, there's so much to life than this love life bullshit - (Ideal Syauqi)

Easy said than done, even if I want to forget about this, this thought, feeling, emotion.... it just kept coming, how much long can I deny it? 

I'm scared....

Scared of myself....

Scared of the wrong decission I will made in life

I hope the future me that reading this, The best of luck to you future... And remember...

KEEP MOVING FORWARD!!!