I am not aunthentic

I can't really feel myself anymore...

People keep teasing my heart, I keep teasing my heart

Why do I need to feel love? Why is it love given by my family is not enough? Isn't it your family is everything? Am I trying too hard to be beloved? Why can't I be true to myself? Why is there so much of me? Where is my true self? What do I really want? Why can I just be me? Why is it God won't answer my prayer? Why can't I be you? Why can't I be normal? Why are there so much noise within my head? Why won't is shut up? Why I keep trying to find an answer to never ending "Why"?

I'm tired... but... why can't I just not stop?
Why is it I need to feel sad and depress to be able to feel alive?
Why is the excruciating feeling feels so good?
I hate it... but, I can't get enough of it

Why is it must be female? What am I really seeking for?


I     don't      know.................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................. .

It must be pain, just hold on a little longer... It's all gonna be over soon...